Mel Gibson's ex-girlfriend Oksana Grigorieva says that she saw the tell-tale signs, of violent behavior, in Mel Gibson. RadarOnline reported that before long before the audio-tapes, emails and phone recordings she knew there was something wrong.
During the early stages of their relationship Gibson would say to her "I hope you never see my other side."
By 2009 the abuse had escalated significantly. A source said "Oksana said Mel had angry outbursts at least one or two times each month during the last year of their relationship.
"Oksana said often these outbursts were precipitated by Mel's short fuse from trying to quit smoking or his uncontrollable jealously.”
After the outbursts Gibson would "apologize profusely and tell her that he was 'mortified' by his behavior, yet days later, he would have another outburst."
In the most recent leaking of private material, that is the center of this case, the media has gotten it's hand on emails between Oksana and Gibson. In the mails he accepts his mistake, seems depressed and speaks about himself like a failure.
He says "How’s your tooth?’ Could you please call me… I want to tell you how unspeakably sorry I am.’
His mails continue "I am beginning to actually see, how screwed up I have been… I love you. I want to be here for you and for Lucy… I was terrified of where we were going and my outbursts and the potential for damage…"
‘I really am losing my grip. I desperately need a solution. I’m sorry it has to affect you. I can’t stand anything anymore. I’m full of s**t and need to shovel some out… I try to be ok but it overpowers me… The pain is too great and everywhere I turn is making it heavier… I’m a f**king failure.’
Oksana's response is not what you expect. She does not seem angry but instead tries to cheer him up.
She says "All I want is for you to be happy. To have no guilt, to smile again. With me or without me, that ever works for you. You are an incredible person. One of the kind. You deserve happiness, deserve love. Please don’t torcher yourself like that, please! You didn’t do anything to be so hard on yourself."