Irish American actor Mel Gibson had pleaded with his girlfriend to understand the pain he was feeling in their relationship after their infamous fight
Documents obtained by TMZ show a contrite Gibson writing to his ex Oksana Grigorieva
"I really am losing my grip. I desperately need a solution. Sorry it has to affect you. I can't stand anything any more ... I'm stuck… I try to be ok but it overpowers me & i'm (sic) something I don't want to be. It's a primal scream thing. The pain is too great & everywhere I turn is making it heavier. Oh to have peace! Oh to have joy. Oh to be able to provide it for another. I'm a f**king failure.""
Grigorieva wrote back U r an anusually [sic] extraordinary person. Ur versitile talent speaks louder than the words! U r capable to make a masterpiece about jesus and to build the church for him! U r just one person, but u did this! In itself it's a lifetime wearthy atchivements, but for only chosen one."
"Please don't torcher urself like that, please!!!! U dint do anything to be so hard on urself. U r amazing man and always will be in my eyes and I will make sure Lucy knows it."
The disclosure documents come after new questions have been raised about whether Gibson had struck her in that row and knocked out two teeth or whether the photo was a staged one as some experts now believe..