It may not be the best choice of words but it's evident from her comments to Britain's Elle magazine that being famous is taking its toll on star of the "Twilight" movies Kristen Stewart.
She said she sometimes can't get a handle on what comes with being famous.
"What you don't see are the cameras shoved in my face and the bizarre intrusive questions being asked, or the people falling over themselves, screaming and taunting to get a reaction," she tells the new issue of Britain's Elle. "The photos are so ... I feel like I'm looking at someone being raped," said Stewart, 20.
She said she "never expected" that this would be her life.
"A lot of the time I can’t handle it," she added
She told Elle in the interview what "really bothers me when people write nasty s--- about me and the perception is that I don’t give a f---. It could not be further from the truth."
She is also sick of being asked if her and co-star Robert Pattinson are an item.
Said Stewart, "What I say is, that, why would I want anything that's private to become entertainment for other people? ... People say that if I just tell them everything I’ll be left alone, but God, you think if I tell people they’ll leave me alone? They pick up every little scrap, and that’s much worse."
We feel for you Kristen.
And unfortunately it's going to get worse before it gets better.
The next "Twilight" installment is due out at the end of June.
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