The autopsy report of Cathriona White, the 30-year-old Tipperary-born makeup artist and former love of actor Jim Carrey, has revealed tragic details about her final days before White took her own life.
She was found dead in her rented home, in the Sherman Oaks area of Los Angeles, on September 28 of last year. White was laid to rest in her hometown of Cappawhite, Tipperary, in October. Carrey was one of her pallbearers, as were other family members. Hundreds of Cappawhite residents and other mourners attended the funeral.
White’s autopsy report, obtained this week by the Daily Mail, reveals that White had broken up with Carrey just a few days before her death, had taken some of his prescription medication from his home, and, according to the Irish Mirror, weighed a tragic 84 pounds at the time of her death. Earlier reports state she was an undocumented immigrant and converted Scientologist.
In a suicide note addressed to Carrey (care of his assistant Nicole Montez who, with White’s friends Dennis and Lena Bradshaw, discovered her body) found on the dining room table of her home, White wrote:
“I’ve spent three days now in disbelief that you’re not here. I can go on and try to put the pieces back together. I could, I just don’t have the will this time.
“I’m sorry you felt I wasn’t there for you. I tried to give you my best part.
“I don't really know about burial or that sort of thing,” She wrote. You are my family so whatever you choose will be fine.
“Please forgive me. I'm just not for this world.”
The note was signed “Dewdrop,” believed to be Carrey’s pet name for White.
The report sates that White had no known mental health issues during her time in the US, though her friends noted “depressive qualities,” and her former husband, Mark Burton, from whom she was separated, said he was aware that his former wife suffered with depressive episodes and had spoken about suicide.
Carrey and White had gone through an on-again-off-again relationship since 2012. They first separated in 2013, during which time, White’s friend Jenny Burpee told investigators, her friend ceased eating and sleeping for nearly a year. The couple later reunited in 2014.
In September of last year, four days before her death, White wrote a “sign-off” from her Twitter account, which friends only saw once it was too late. On that day – September 24 – White sent Carrey a text message asking that he call her if he was awake. They had a three-minute-long Face Time conversation a few hours later.
On September 27, the day before White died, Carrey sent her a text message asking her if she knew where his prescription painkillers and anti-inflammatory drugs, which had been under his sink, had gone. She did not reply to that message.
The official report from the Los Angeles County Coroner’s Office states that White died from a lethal cocktail of prescription drugs including zofran, propranol, percocet and ambien.
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline operates 24 hours a day, 7 days a week at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). If someone you know is experiencing a mental health emergency, do not leave them alone. Remove any firearms, drugs or sharp objects from the area. If possible, take them to a walk-in clinic at a psychiatric hospital or a hospital emergency room. Otherwise, call 911 or the suicide hotline.
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