Kristen Stewart, star of “The Twilight Saga” broke down in an interview with a British magazine saying she detests the attention of being famous and the constant presence of paparazzi.
“All you see is an actor or a celebrity lit up but a flash.
"It’s so… The photos are so… I feel like I’m looking at someone being raped. A lot of the time I can’t handle it.
"It’s f**ked. I never expected that this would be my life," said the distraught star.
She has often spoken about her annoyance as being in the spotlight citing this as the reason she often looks unhappy on the red carpet.
Stewart admitted that the constant interest in her personal life and constant analysis of photographs and body language during public appearances makes her physically sick.
“It’s so weird, that you have to be worried about people seeing things,” she said.
“You want to be excited about something, normal people can be excited about their lives, and I am too, but it’s such a different thing.
"It comes out as entertainment for other people and that makes me want to throw up.”
In the interview she also said that she has never dated someone that she immediately found attractive. The starlet, who is in a rumored relationship with her co-star Robert Pattinson, said that it takes her a while to get to know someone before she find them appealing enough to date.
“People want me to say that I really like it when guys are funny and dorky but I’ve never really gone out with someone I’ve found attractive initially," she said.
As her work “The Twilight Saga: Eclipse” comes to a close Stewart has no plans for further work and instead plans to take some time off.
“Oddly enough I have a really clean horizon, I’m excited about the last few films I did coming out but other than that – I always have my next three things planned out so to have a clean horizon is pretty nice,” said Stewart.
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